Does anyone know anything about age repression? I think I'm going through it. I've been working on addiction recovery and child abuse in therapy. I am 47 years old and I have been cutting & purging.

I feel when I'm with T especially that he is a parent and I am the child. I'm ok with that, it feels good. I told him about that on Saturday and he said he understands that in my situation.

I was very upset a week ago when my T mentioned eventual termination. I was crying all week, like someone died. T assured me he wouldn't abandon me. I was very concerned about being abandoned. Last week I was very panicky. I was reading a web article on PTSD adult survivors of abuse and I went into a panic attack. I couldn't finish the article.

I saw T on Saturday and talked to him about the panic and he feels I have a deep issue with abandonment. He again assured me he was not going anywhere. Since I saw him Saturday I've been feeling really good.

I just don't feel like an adult. I don't know if I trying to live my childhood now or what. I don't feel my T is doing anything to bring this on. If he is, how is he doing it? I bring the topic.

This is weird. Can someone help?