hey guys!

The depression part of my bp 1 is causing me physically not being able to work, due to severe lethargy/ low energy issues.

It's just as simple as that. I start any activity and about 30 minutes, or maybe less, I'm done. no physical energy.
The mental part is a bit better, if I lay in a bed, I'm able to write a blog, or maybe write articles or something, but I don't have a job that pays me to do that.

I'm 27 and so far in my last 2 years, 8 out of 12 months has been like this, and the other 4, was once a full blown manic episode, with about 1 month hypomania, and the recent 4 "good" months were sort of stabilized with lots of drugs.

now out of nothing came the new "episode". You can call it depression if you want, I could qualify for that diagnosis, but I don't really care about the moods, I mean obviously it's not good to feel down, and be unhappy, and unmotivated, but the thing is, that I actually feel kinda motivated, it's just that I don't have the energy to do all the things needed.

I really want to "grow up" finally and be responsible for my life, but it seems like medication is just not doing it, it can't prevent, and not even help with my low episodes.

Which sucks, but can you maybe give me some advice, what kind of jobs are out there, that can be done from home, ie. writing, blogging, journalism, whatever, because obviously I don't want to be dependent from my parents, I wanna have my own assets.

Oh and another question: will this get any better? or I just have to accept, that it's gonna be like this forever? 4 out of 12 months I'm able to get things done, and other 8 months just being in bed, only able to do small tasks, and small amounts of physical activity.

are there any med combos out there that help with energy? I've basically tried everything, probably except the fluoxetine/olanzapine combo.
lamotrigine caused skin rashes, so can't take that one. i'm currently on venlafaxine, xanax and tegretol. Obviously not doing the job.

Visiting my Pdoc on monday, I'm gonna ask him about this.
also back in therapy as well.
it does help with anxiety and coping.. but coping's cool and all, but actual treatment that could help me hold a job would help a lot more.

thank you!