Past Therapist) A little history: I push people away I had this past therapist for 2 years when this conversation. We were actually getting to a decent point in therapy but I was scared and wanted to run away.Me- I don't think this is going to work I think I need another therapist. I just don't think this is working.T-Not going to happen, I'm not giving up on you, I care about you and I know you want to push me away but I'm not qutting on you. It's your choice if you want to leave but is that what you really want?Me-umm.(I was about in tears.) I need to use the bathroom ..T-Sure but if you do what I think your going to do I want to see afterwards. Or you can push through the emotion, Feel the emotion and get past it. It's ok to cry.Me-(fixing to run out of office my chest is tight I'm about to loes it, I need to Si.)T-Come on your stronger than that, you can do this Push through it.Me-I can't can't do this, starts to cry attempts to open door.T- Comes next to me puts one hand on door says" I'm here for you lets get through this".Me-I sit on floor start crying hard now saying "I hate you I hate you"T-sits right next to me says" It's ok let it out your safe now it's ok.Me-Crying harder start to dig at my arm.T-says" Not happening kiddo.. your safe now" grabs my hand and wraps her arms around me.Me-cries and cries"actually hugs backT-Ten minutes later says" Well I told you, you could do it..Me-finally stoped crying. " I don't want another therapist I'm just scared."T-I know.. I care about you and we will get though this.Me-I Will try to push you away even though deep down I want you as my therapist. I might be mean.T- I can handle it and like I said I'm not giving up so push all you want.Me-okay.

T= therapist
Me= me lol.