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Nooooo, you're not responsible for any of the world disasters, sweetie. Just seeing that you CARE proves you aren't responsible. It's the stupid people who don't care that are responsible so stop taking the blame for something you're not responsible for.
Don't worry about money. Right now it seems like it's the end of the world because of it but it's not. Money is nothing. I was stone cold broke so many times, it's not even funny but I made it through it all somehow and I'm not rich nor even "comfortable" but I'm doing okay. And you'll be doing okay sometime in the future soon. It's not going to stay like this forever. You're going to be fine.
Don't worry about wasting the day away. Think of it this way, most animals hibernate for a good portion of the year, right? Well, you're just doing what is coming naturally to you. Go and hibernate if you have to. You need to recuperate and re energize yourself-don't feel bad about it.