Hi. I'm a 25 year old nurse. My friends all would describe me as the free spirit. I took 5 trips since June. One was to Mexico for a week to stay with a guy I met there when on a cruise. I bought the plane tickets and went without a single hesitation. I didn't know I liked gambling until I lost a lot of money. I wrecked my car drinking and driving. I flew to Vegas for a weekend to meet up with people I had never met. I got a tattoo. I don't sleep very much. I constantly feel restless. My life is spiraling out of control. I know it is. I don't have health insurance and I'm broke. Idk how I am going to get help. I'm also scared to get help because I kind of like the messy parts of me. I want to be spontaneous and fun and go on adventures, but with limits. Limits I cannot set for myself.