(((Raceka)))

I too have been dealing with difficult childhood issues during my middle age, and I have often felt like a little child, both behaviorally and psychologically. There is an incongruence beween our chronological age and societal expectations of how we should be behaving. Hence, the bad feelings about ourselves, and the shame rears its ugly head. I really understand.

I don't think anyone is to blame for this (meaning you or your T). I think it is just the by-product of the working through of some really difficult stuff from your chldhood. Just keep going and keep talking. Love your inner child. I am just getting to know mine.

I don't understand why your T is talking about termination. Other people have brought this up. I'm becoming terrified that my T will drop this bomb on me one of these days but I don't think I'm anywhere near ready -- I have so much work to do. Do you know why he mentioned it? If he keeps reassuring you, then why did he say it in the first place?

I'm glad you are feeling better and no you are not weird because if your are then I am too!