Blueberry welcome to Psych Central. Sorry you are confused but you can get a lot of info on OCD here at PC
Obssessive-Compulsive Disorder Symptoms and Treatment

There are also quizzes to get a second opinion although not a diagnosis
OCD Screening Quiz (Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder) - Psych Central
or a forum where you can see what others are going through and post what you are going through
OCD Success Stories - Forums at Psych Central

OCD and Trichotillomania - Forums at Psych Central

You can also check out the depression forum also
Depression - Forums at Psych Central

Thank you for visiting. Hope to hear from you soon.