I've been struggling with disordered eating habits for the longest time, probably about the past 5 years. If I'm not staving myself, then it's binge eating or bulimia. I've been to counselors and an in-patient treatment center once. (Then I came home and spiraled downhill)

I just don't know what to do anymore..it's like if someone doesn't physically force me to change, my life will go straight to hell. It already has. I'm failing all of my classes this semester, and one of them is one that I've already dropped out of before. I used to get all A's and B's in high school before I went insane..but now I just spend all of my time obsessing over food, exercising, and grocery shopping. It's like I'm an alcoholic or drug addict, but it's with food.

Like today I convinced myself that I was going to get caught up in my classes, then just wasted 5 hours buying food and eating it. And the entire time my hands were shaking (from caffeine), it was like I had no control over what I was doing. It's ridiculous.

This problem is completely ruining my life, and I really need help!!