I have Sexual Sadism and Masochism thoughts. I am BI-sexual and think about both S and M frequently with women(I am happily married). I have periods where there is definitely significant distress mostly with friendships & really sexy lady strangers, though I am fine at work.

I know it is because I have had issues with female friends and them being back stabbing, gossiping, passive aggressive pieces of crap. And, honestly it's hard to find women that aren't, or i've just had REALLY bad luck. At the moment I'm just trying to have at least one female friendship that will last, with or without sex. I'm just hoping that the sex thoughts will go away after having a close friend for a long time, though I'm not sure that they will.

Are there any other females out there with this issue, or anyone who knows a female who has this issue? Any info about what has worked, what hasn't would be greatly appreciated.

Thank you for reading.