That is not entirely true as far as I know..they don't take your SSI away if they find out I can go to a concert or two, they don't like monitor every purchase you make anyways even if they didn't feel that was a proper use of whats left once I cover nessecities....they would have no way to know that especially if I use cash. And yeah after I pay my 300 or rent, phone bill and other sort of basic things I will spend the rest on things I like that make my life more pleasant.

If they enforced disability=not being able to have any type of life I think suicide would move up from being a something I haven't entirely ruled as no idea where life will take me and if I can endure it..to being fairly close to the top of the list of options of what to do in that case.