Thanks I am feeling really supported by the feedback in these posts.

It's almost like waking up and realizing that my feelings are more important than my grades.

It's ok to be human, I don't have to always strive to be perfect, sometimes life events happen and it takes longer to get back up, as long as I keep trying and don't give up.

But also it's ok to take time off to deal with my grief and in that process I might have to let go of other things and that's ok.

This is what I am getting from the replies here and it really truly helped me, I feel much better in realizing that, thank you all very much for responding to me.