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There is a Buddhist precept that says the more you want something, the less likely it is you will ever achieve it. Might it be you are trying so hard to be happy in this new, conscious way, you are defeating your own purpose? Also, what is this "new, conscious way" you're seeking to be happy in? Can you describe it for us? I think this would be an excellent post to put in the Coping with Emotions forum:

Coping with Emotions - Forums at Psych Central

Please do not become discouraged, ThisYearsGirl. You are most welcome here, & there are many members who will be pleased to help in any way we can. PC is a great place.