I feel sad and upset, I have anxiety and I'd really like to lay down all day. In general I feel awful in the mornings and then about 3 or so my energy starts to come up and it feels like I can do things. Other times that doesn't happen.

I'm not able to cry and I think I'd feel much better if I could just cry when I feel this way. It would let the emotions out rather than having them all mixed up together inside. I don't seem to have any control over them and I get down on myself because I think I ought to be able to manage them. I blame myself for feeling the way I do.

I just joined the board yesterday. I often go read different forums when I can't handle what I feel. There are so many other people who feel these things and it helps me to know I'm not the only one. Sometimes that really calms me down.
I've had about 3 weeks of depression and anxiety and it wears me out. I've gotten used to having a few mostly good days in the last few months and when the depression and anxiety starts again it's so discouraging. If I had 3 or 4 mostly good days and then 3 or 4 awful days I think I could handle it but it seems the backlash of bad days lasts so much longer than the better days. And I have no idea how long it will last.

I have CPTSD. I just joined the forums yesterday and after reading the replies people sent me just now I'm happy I did. It really helps!