I made the mistake of starting again (I hadn't smoked in years) a few weeks ago. My pdoc had warned me about it, but of course I always think I know better so I went ahead and did it. After all, I wasn't working, and it didn't look like I would be working anytime soon so no worries about being drug screened.

Not long after I started, I plummeted into a depression that made me suicidal, as well as a touch psychotic (kept seeing cats running under the linen carts in the emergency room). They did UA me there, so I confessed to having smoked several bowls within the week prior to my admission. A nurse told me that may have tipped me over since I'd been pretty fragile before I lost it.

At any rate, I'm not using MJ now and I'm not going to do it again. I don't mind being around other people who are smoking, but no more for me. I don't want to take the chance, even if it wasn't what caused my SI. It's not worth it.