I put a trigger thing..not certain if that is what a trigger is for..I just need to say that I'm so upset and angry for so many things right now it's very confusing. I just feel like yelling and I would do need to be able to let out all this.

I really wish people would realize that I'm not all yet all good...I'm still slow at doing things I'm usually good at..I'm also still under so much stress..It is so very difficult...

everybody expects me to be who I usually am..I can't right now. I've really got to find a way to tell all the people close to me without making things worst.

I'm this close to quitting my job, this close to telling a few people to go...
and this close to telling some people that I'm really fed up of a few things..it's so really really hard right now. and I must keep my head, my calm, my cool because: I need money to pay my bills, need to be there for my mother who just found out she has lung cancer..and I must maintain my treatment..but man do I wish I could just go have a good healthy way to let out all this anger without making my closed ones feel bad..I want to be alone and just scream, punch something..a bag, break things...I need to let it all out...