I agree with Bluegrey that sometimes you have to try out a different therapist if the one that you go to is not helping you out with the "difficut thoughts". Try doing a search in Google for trauma therapy or trauma counselor or dial 911 or a hotline number to be connected with a trained specialist. I understand what you are going through and I've also had memories that made me feel really worthless before. It's not all that you are. There is more to you than the memories of the trauma, but finding a trained specialist to talk to would be the first step to feeling better. Sometimes the therapy might not work out, but you can always look up helpful videos on youtube, or call a friend, or close relative. I know there are hotlines you can call about various issues and that there are specific support groups where you can talk about what happened. More importantly, listen to soothing music, provide yourself with inspiration, and perhaps treat yourself as a beautiful woman that you are.