I don't care what kind of pain med it is. I'm just so tired of hurting. Since I can't take NSAIDs, that eliminates a huge chunk of pain meds doctors can give you. I read saying that you can't take NSAIDs is a huge red flag for doctors look for in pill seekers. But even though I have proof that I can't take NSAIDs, the doctor told me to do so anyways.

My first appointment with the pain specialist was Friday, nov 14th. He said the MRI people would call me on mon or tue. I didn't realize the cream he prescribed me was an NSAID until after I left. So I called on Monday and I told the lady my problem and she said I needed to reschedule to talk to the doctor and tell him (even though I swear I'm certain I wrote on my forms and told him I had the gastric sleeve) that I had surgery and see what else I can take. So we rescheduled my appointment for last wed and canceled my follow up appointment that was supposed to be on dec 1st to talk about my MRI results. Last wed came and that morning, a nurse called and asked why I was coming back so soon and I told her and she told me to hold on and that she would "ask the doctor". I'm not even exaggerating. She put me on hold for not even 5 seconds and told me the doctor said that I should just use the cream anyways because even though it's an NSAID, it's "minimally absorbed". And that I didn't need to come into my appointment. So I did my research to make sure I was correct. I already think I have an ulcer. I'm making an appointment with a GI doctor tomorrow. I've had two in the past so I know how they feel. Even topical NSAIDs go into your blood stream and thins your stomach lining. The MRI people didn't call me last week. I have a feeling they're not going to call this week either. I don't think this doctor is really willing to try to help and I feel like he's already put me down as a drug seeker. Should I just go to another?

I don't care what kind of pain medicine it is or if it's addictive. I've never been addicted to anything and I've never abused any substance, so I'm not worried about any of that. I don't even care if the drug was experimental at this point.

I've spent the entire weekend, just laying in bed with a heating pad and eating more Tylenol than I should in 24 hours because the pain has been so bad since Friday. I've gotten maybe 9 hours of sleep since I woke up at 1pm on Friday. So it's been 55 hours since this pain spiked and I barely sleep 3 hours when the pain calms down enough. No amount of sleeping pills will put me to sleep. My stomach pain is adding to that. I feel so pathetic just laying here, crying.

I've never been so depressed in my life. I would rather repeat some traumatic events to feel okay. At least then my depression wasn't even close to this.