hey, Thank you for all the replies, you all gave me good ideas and it helps. I told myself I would go to bed at 11pm..still up but going there now. Yes, I'm taking my meds, must get up early for blood work and will be seing the pdoc nurse about all the meds next friday..but until then..I must cope with a lot of stress right now..my emotions are very edgy, not only because of my illness but also because of part of some news I got on friday about my mother's health..and tomorrow afternoon I'm going with her to her appointment with a pneumologist. My boss has already offered me to call in after the appointment to let her know if I will be able to work. Because I spoke to her on friday..because my mother told me the news about 10 minutes before my super break was over and it just Hit me and I was in tears..ah..my co worker..I guess they just did not know how to react to me..I wish I could of just walked out..but I stayed a few hours and then left..now I'm also afraid of going back..(that is my illness fear) anyways I'm going to bed, hot bath seroquel here I come..got to sleep a good 8 hours. thank you