I have been feeling as if I'm all 'fixed', all better, there is nothing wrong with me, and that maybe when my therapist comes back from leave(whenever that is!), I will tell him that I no longer need him.

I told my best friend today and she said.....wow, great. Then looked at me square in the eyes and said.......and that's just you running away right?

I don't know, so much is going through my head.....

The session just before my therapist went on leave, I was completely lost inside of a horrible traumatic memory and it took time for my therapist to ground me back to the present moment, and I experienced the most horrid intense feelings as if I were right back there. This is the worst I have experienced, it stayed with me for a long time and seriously affected my ability to function, even 'normally' for me.

Since then, once recovered, I have felt nothing apart from this sense of....oh, everything is fine, I'm great, nothing is wrong, I don't need my therapist anymore......... I don't need to go back.

Am I running away? Am I deluding myself, have I shoved all the pain and trauma away again into the rooms in my head to never look at again? Am I not being honest with myself?

Any ideas?