Thank you all for your input. I had a better day yesterday, I managed to go to work, and not think about things for about an hour or so at a time.
Still waiting for the counselors to get back in touch... but it's monday so maybe sometime this week.
Hoping this week will be better.
Reading some of the threads about therapy has worried me though. It comes across like not all therapists are professional and some people get attached to their therapist. I don't want to be dependent on them too much.