I hear you about the sleep issues, I can't go to bed before 2am and no matter what time the next day I just can't wake up. Benzos are dangerously addictive for me too, so I mostly stay aware from them. My sleep is a huge issue, but not my primary focus. I have been given escitalopram (lexapro) foy anxiety and depression. That alone didn't work, so I'm now on a high dose and (due to a crisis I had) I have been prescribed olanzapine (zyprexa) as a mood stabliser. The olanzapine has worked a treat for my anxiety, sui and ptsd symptoms. I have, so far, had no side effects from either med. Unfortunately, given your family history of diabetes, olanzapine may not be an option for you, as it is known to cause diabetes in some cases. No one med suits or fits everyone, so it's hard to know what will work. Grom my little experience, I've just realised that you shouldn't be living in a state of panic all the time. When you're anxiety is so debilitating it interrupts your life and the way you interact with the world, then meds should., at least in part, help. I'm sorry you haven't found the right combination yet. While doing your t homework is important, if there's a chemical imbalance, no amount of homework will help.