I have hit a low but am coming out of it. I am feeling better, my Community Nurse thinks I have SAD. So I am waiting on a SAD light box arriving. I feel like I'm up and down (some days I'm depressed and other days I feel a little hyper/wired). I'm struggling with sleep either I'm getting none, getting a few hours (like last night) or I'm sleeping all day up to 16 hours. I'm feeling really paranoid in my flat. But it's carrying on outside my flat. Normally my music helps me cope but it's not working. I don't want to take my meds anymore.... I have missed the odd day here and there. I take them so late as I just don't want to take them... also I swear someone is watching my flat...

I feel like I'm going insane. I haven't told anyone about any of this as they will worry... but I'm kinda freaking out