None of my business but will ask anyway if you wish to reveal. What kind of self medications? Of course you can say keeping that personal. I had, before we sold our other home and moved, a number of wood structures I never finished before I was ever diagnosed BP. The size and time to finish the wood buildings were too long and expensive to start with. I now know it all was due to me being BP. I'd lie in bed thinking all about what and how I needed to design the project. Then without, or with drawn plans, during on site work, I'd change something. I'm happier now that I do not flood my brain with such projects. I must also have OCD and compulsive to say the least.