so this has been going on for quite a long time. i have always been known for being shy in front of small groups and definitely large crowds. at home i am very open and super hyper and fun to be around. it seems like everyone doesnt want to talk to me unless i start the conversation and they see that im really a funny and random caring person. i wish i could be more open with people and show them the real me but theres something inside that stops me. if im super comfortable with someone, then i can walk with them and be myself but if im with someone who is also around there other friends i feel like the outcast and i shut down instantly. ive taken soooo many tests on here for this and i answered them as honest as possible. they all say i have it or may have social anxiety disorder. i wish there was a way to fix this. im almost 18 and i cant even go to lunch without feeling scared or like im being watched. :/