(((((kerry, wants2fly, beyondredemption, selfharmer, pickle))))). Thanks so much for your replys. I got a huge smile and warm fuzzies just from reading them . Bit sleep deprived at the mo (oldest in hospital with respiratory infection but doing fine) but apart from that feeling much better. Did the icecream thing the other day btw selfharmer. Doesn't do much for the weight but sure tasted good lol. I guess biggest reason for feeling better is the fact that I am not alone, left with my thoughts- I am so busy with Chloe! But that is a good thing. Again, thanks