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Old Nov 24, 2014, 01:40 PM
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Originally Posted by Webgoji View Post
That's the thing, there's a ton going on here. Attachment, transference just to name a few. And they're strong. Mentally you've created an image of your teacher as being a source of happiness. You've overinflated her good qualities and frozen that image of her in your mind. Basically you aren't seeing the real her anymore.

A good therapist should be able to help you talk through these issues so you can see her in the correct light and move on.
It's true what you said, thank you. The thing is that I don't trust people and I have had some bad experiences with therapists. Also it costs money and I don't have a lot, so it's a big risk to go in therapy again.

I think you're right when you say that I have frozen a image of her in my head. I wish I had a friend in real life where I could talk to instead of an expensive therapist. But I don't have them and also no family to talk about my issues. It's really sick but I have conversations with my teacher IN my head. I know it's not real , it's not like i'm schizophrenic or something. But I close my eyes and talk to her, like she's there. I'm so pathetic. I hate myself even more when I write this.
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