I had two seasons last week. My usual one on one session and then one with a family member. My usual session went just as it always does but the second one was not good at all. I don't want to get into it because I get paranoid that T or someone I know might find me on this site but I left extremely sui and acted on those thoughts. Basically, I gave myself a ultimatum and it ended up being enough for me not to go through. I'm pissed at my T but mostly at my family member. However, now I'm in this mind set that my family member needs more help than I do and I feel like I should stop trying to help myself and focus on helping them. I feel so selfish. I have my one on one session tonight and I don't know if I should go. I don't know what to do. I feel so lost and so alone. Sorry I just felt like I needed to get this out there.