I'm so sorry you're feeling this way gloaming.

I go there with these thoughts sometimes and beat myself up. Not a good place to be in.

I'm currently unemployed and my sleep is whacked.

I'm sorry that as a child you never received positive affirmations that you, or all children, really do deserve. It can cause long term repercussions.

If you feel worthless 99% of the time, might I ask what it is that you can do 1% of the time where you don't feel this way?

I'm wondering what kind of support system you have in place. Who is there for you? We all need someone, even if it's a T that can help us through these issues.

I don't think that what you are feeling is necessarily a "forever" feeling. I think that there are some aspects you may be able to heal in with assistance.

Be well.