You're welcome. To be honest, I have always been like this. From since I was about 12 I can remember getting obsessed with guys, sometime I didn't even know these guys personally, and friends complaining that they were all I ever talked about. Ive thought about it a lot and I think it was cos I was so shy and insecure in myself socially, that I became obsessed with guys and it gave me something to think and talk about and in a way kind of defined me. I was the girl obsessed with whoever. I went from one obsession to another all my life, I always thought I was madly in love and would never get over it. Until the next person came along. I don't really know what is wrong with me. I have seen threads on other sites about other people getting obsessed with people, so it's not just us. Also, with me, if it's not a person it's a thing, a musical, tv show, website etc. I don't really know why I do this, I guess maybe it takes my mind off all the bad stuff for a while. Whether it's healthy or not I really don't know. I can defintely say I've made some bad decisions based on these obsessions that I won't go into but yeah. It's hard to find a balance sometimes. I'm trying to stop feeding the obsession now too, by not following every little thing he and is band do. I've changed my profile pics and usernames on my pages away from him (I had my name and his surname as my username..) I'm thinking about taking my posters down so I won't have the constant reminder. I've so many it would take too long though! I'll always love him but I do need to calm down. Like I said, concentrating on other things, whether it be reading or something has helped so far. I just think I was a bit deluded but I do get like that. I'm here if you need to talk anymore, anytime. Just try not to make yourself feel worse over it, I'm sure there is a reason behind it and it doesn't make you a bad person. The important thing is your health and happiness, and if it's upsetting you that much then that's obviously not good. Please take care of yourself.