I just finished watching a documentery on Edie Windsor and Thea Spyer, a famous lesbian couple who were together for 50ish years. And I thought that I don't want to die before I experience that. So all these physical symptoms are really scaring me again.

I need to go back and see that gastroenterologist, but he is going to think I'm crazy. Who the hell wants to have a colonoscopy?! But I just want to know that I don't have colon cancer, and if I do then how much time I've got left.