Thanks for some of your feedback. Just to be more clear, my psychiatrist, therapist, parents know the whole story. That was the reason I even got hospitalized. I don't have homicidal ideations now. It's not my normal personality. But is that an indicator (along with the other symptoms I have list) of some sort of manic phase? I am not looking g for a diagnosis. I'm asking if any of you have has similar experiences directly relating to your bipolar disorder.