Today involved a lot of pain for me. I'm physically and emotionally in pain. The physical stuff is nothing new, but today it really brought me down, and angered me (lately I've been feeling less mad). My parents really hurt my feelings and made me angry this weekend. It was a partial misunderstanding, but it really hurt me nonetheless. We discussed many difficult, painful topics for some reason, and I think that surpassed my limit for the day. I keep finding my limits, and it's hard. People tried to warn me that this would be hard work when I left hospital, but I thought it would be all easier from now on. Trying to restart life is proving much harder than I anticipated. I need a hug. 
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~originally diagnosed with Bipolar II in hospital (Nov)
~diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder by psychiatrist in (Dec)
~Abilify (2mg)
~Trazodone (50mg)
~have seen psychiatrist once since being released from psych ward after suicide attempt...
~severe anxiety in public/closed spaces
~just began DBT, counseling
Nothing Else Matters - MetallicA
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead - P!nk
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