Thanks, I thought the weather analogy was really spot on, my mom has used it, says that's how they described bipolar in the old days, before it had a name...but I never thought to ask her what it actually meant.


I have short bursts of euphoria, they last maybe 4/5 days, after that my ups turn aggressive, and I've been suicidal more times than I care to count...but that being said I would not push the button.


Obviously not because I like my episodes, but more because this beast is my beast. I can't imagine myself without it, as that version of me has never even existed. Not only is a new me undesirable, but why wish for something that doesn't exist...


I joined psych central to find others like me, people to relate to, as I don't know any bipolar dxd folk off line.


I did not come here seeking to get rid of it, I am not delusional, its definitely not going anywhere. Obviously.