Yes, you all have a point. I am running away........

Because it feels safer to avoid the memories, that last session was too scary! I haven't even said the bloody words, or described the things happened, the feelings that come are just too hard.

You are right that it is easier to stop without seeing my therapist again. Because his kindness and compassion would soften his ability to see straight through me, and yet he would still bring me back to where he 'knows' I need to go to heal.

Bluuuuuuuuuurggggghhh........