JulieBean
thanks for the response, you have some good Ideas.
I've tried the rubberband thingbut it didn't work for me because I began to use that self abusively instead of theraputically.

I know that I have a desire to stop this, Being a Multiple complicates things some but ironnically, it was another part who wrote in calling for help,(and even more ironically that part is named julie, so when you signed your response, my Julie was right there saying "see, listen she has the same name so she must know something."!), that is a safety net in itself at times, because we all don't want the same things, or one of us can call for help.

It just so happened that because we distracted ourself long enough by writing, the bars closed!

Thanks for your great support. Julie,(listener)