Have you tried different types of therapy? I don't like it either, but I have found a way to make it useful in some ways. Therapists are just people who chose a line of work - they are not magic or special or wonderful human beings. Many of them are awful and some are okay. If one is lucky, one finds a therapist who is not a complete disaster. I have never found one I thought was super o brilliant or anything. I found two who are reasonably bearable.