have been diagnosed with BPD, and one of the main symptoms (from what a therapist told me) is impulsiveness. more often it is the impulsive decisions rather than plain old bad decisions that have the detrimental effect on our lives.
by impulsive, I do really mean doing things on impulse with out even realizing it in some cases, like dating that woman who abuses you simply because you are lonely, and she is available.
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why me? what did I do to deserve being treated this way? and for 54 years yet!
The guy who seemed unbreakable BROKE,
the guy who always laughed STOPPED,
the guy who never stopped trying finally GAVE UP,
he dropped the fake smile as a tear rolled down his cheek and he whispered "i cant do this anymore"
then collapsed and gave up the ghost.
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