Yeah I am just paranoid it will get out. Writing this post is the first time I have told ANYONE. I don't know if it's because im bipolar or what I have no idea where this addiction comes from. I tell myself I will stop and then cave within a day or two. I get sex twice a week from my wife shouldn't that be enough?? I have seriously contemplated suicide but I have a 13 year old daughter and could never do that to her