That really is a very signinficant loss to lose something that is such an important part of your life. You lose more than the sport or your health, etc. You lose the association with the people who were part of that part of that life. Even if you are still friends, it's probably not the same. I don't know how to make it better. I don't think that anyone can. But I just wanted you to know that how you are feeling makes sense, and I am sorry that you lost something that is important to you like that. I hope that your knee gets better too. You can talk about it here if you want to. Sometimes that is easier than talking IRL.

(((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))

Rap