I'm sorry that happened stbguy. I know you won't believe it but she doesn't deserve you if she acted that way just because you had feelings for her. I haven't been tested for aspergers but I already have enough mental illness' without adding another one lol. I know it's not funny but I have to laugh or I'd cry. I think I have everything I read about anyway, the latest being histrionic personality disorder. It's scarily accurate description of me, but then so is everything else I read about.

Vossie42, interesting question. I guess I'm avoiding thinking about hurting myself. I did it for years (both self harm and starving) but I haven't done it once since I first saw this guy. I don't even know what it is about him, I mean I see lots of hot celebrities online, but I just get this warm fuzzy feeling inside when I see or think about him. It was love at first sight which never happens to me. He literally had the most beautiful smile in the world, it's the one thing everyone says about him, it was the second thing I ever said about him "I love him, his smile is beautlful" maybe I should stop, I could go on and on about how perfect he "seems" I put those quotation marks since I don't actually know him and of course he's gonna make himself seem perfect so he'll have fans buy the music. I'm not completely stupid either, I do know he has a public image which may not be how he is really. It's just nice to dream. And he does talk too much for my liking, I'd have a headache listening to him lol.

About not feeding it, yeah tonight I was at a show and still couldn't stop thinking of him. I kept picturing that smile, that damn smile that melts my heart. I don't know, I'm sorry for hijacking the thread going on about him. How are you doing elin95?