I don't know what I am anymore, or what I can do, or what I want, I if I can even have what I want, whatever that is. I think I'm getting myself into a tangled mess again. I can't seem to figure out whether it is worth living anymore some days. I just started seeing someone a while ago, and tonight he kept saying, whats wrong, just say it, there;s something wrong... sometimes I don't even know what it is...and then I just got teary and he kept pushing at it, I said I wanted to go because I couldn't stop crying.

My dad has been sick too and I worry about what my future will be. I never had a great relationship with my parents, but I don't want to see them getting so old and frail. I'd like someone to care about me but right now I feel like no one does.