Oh my friend, I'm sooooo sorry you're going through this hell. I know you've been in pain but I had no idea it was this bad. I'm appalled.....(I'm light years beyond appalled!).....that this woman is so unfeeling and insensitive to your plight. How could she not recognize that your back's against a wall and you need more than 'business as usual' right now?!?!? As a fellow BP'er I understand every aspect of stress and how we're affected by it; I so wish I could remove some of yours'. I can't but I can listen and encourage you to vent especially when the thoughts try to take over. (PM me then and anytime, Innerzone, ok?) Remember, my friend, moment to moment......always, grey