I'm sorry that I only post when I'm having a so-called crisis, but today I really f***ed up.

I lied to get out of trouble, so I don't want to write much about what I did wrong, because I'm still feeling paranoid that my employer will find out that I lied.

The thing is, I'm sure I'm going to get into this situation again. I didn't want to screw up in the first place, but that didn't stop me from screwing up. It might happen again. It might happen again tomorrow. There doesn't seem to be anything I can do to change it.

I don't really want to figure out what to do to change it anyway. I'm afraid if I do, it will only make it much worse when I fail again.

So I'm failing at my job. The only thing I want to do about it is get some magic spell that will erase all my past mistakes and guarantee 100% that I will never fail again.