I wish I had a 100% guarantee that I will never fail, never make a mistake, never say or do the wrong thing, and never embarrass anyone with my stupid emotions.

I wish I had 100% control of every aspect in my life, from every calorie I consume to whether or not I'll have a successful life.

I wish my life were not a rigorously graded test where every grade below 99.99% is an automatic F.

I wish I didn't feel like I had the word "loser" stamped on my forehead, or invite people to bully me because of my ugly looks, my dumb brain, or whatever unwritten rule I broke.

I wish I would never have to hear about how easy I have it, and that I should be more appreciative, and that I need to suffer to "build character", and that the problem with me is that I "think" I'm so wonderful when I clearly am not (which of course people think they need to teach me -- constantly.)

I wish I could feel like the other people I see, laughing and having fun and participating in life. I wish I didn't feel like I am missing out or that I don't understand what everyone else in the world understands.

I wish I could look in the mirror and not see the big, ugly, dopey failure who attracts people -- nice people who treat everyone else kindly -- to bully her.