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I. I just have to bit by bit, allow the fantasy to go and take hold of what is there. I think the transistion stage is hardest. For a while there it feels like I'm groping for the light switch unsure of where it is. But knowing it is there in reality. Just no one ever taught me that the moments in the darkness are ok, they're safe.

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I needed this. I need to tape it to my monitor when Im emailing my T like an obsessive loser...thank you for this. the reality of it sucks though. Im not there yet...maybe if I had more "real" people in my life.