Oh IZ, I'm sooo sorry that lady is a halfwit.
I wish I could take your pain from you, for 1, at least I get pain killers instead of candy, and 2, you could use a damn break right about now my friend.
Please continue to vent away, hopefully posting will help to dispel the intensity of those thoughts... I have found that they are quite heavy when kept a secret, but not so much when they're exposed...
Sending you lots of

ssss and painless positive vibes across the ocean. I hope the end to your agony is in plain sight, that the Drs have a viable solution sOOn.