Saw PNurse tonight - went in for simple paperwork and ended up spewing all my upset. She was really concerned and also tried to see about my taking a leave of absence, but I really can't without jeopardizing my job. She said she'd do anything she could to help me through this challenging time. She got to see at least 2 of me tonight. The good thing is that the little one is now trusting to tell her things she's never told in the past. It's taken 2 years to build trust. Which she commented on, and reminded me/us of our strengths.