Wow! I didn't think anyone would actually respond, so thank you! It's a relief to find someone to relate to and understand where I am coming from. As a college student now, I feel as though there's an expectation to have experience in a sexual relationship. However, I've never even been in a relationship before which makes me feel like a deviant outcast since I do not live up to these social norms.
I have never heard of that before, I am very new to these forums and such but I would love to check it out! Is there a website for it?
As for the tanning, thank you for your advice, I appreciate it. As you can see, I don't take any pride in myself whatsoever, but I would never be reckless about something that can cause harm such as tanning. I only do it in moderation and plan on going for routine checkups with a dermatologist just to be safe. I do not want to stop tanning though because I feel like if I am darker, I will be the slightest bit prettier.