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Old Nov 26, 2014, 03:17 AM
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Originally Posted by BeBrave483 View Post
I'm sorry that happened stbguy. I know you won't believe it but she doesn't deserve you if she acted that way just because you had feelings for her. I haven't been tested for aspergers but I already have enough mental illness' without adding another one lol. I know it's not funny but I have to laugh or I'd cry. I think I have everything I read about anyway, the latest being histrionic personality disorder. It's scarily accurate description of me, but then so is everything else I read about.

Vossie42, interesting question. I guess I'm avoiding thinking about hurting myself. I did it for years (both self harm and starving) but I haven't done it once since I first saw this guy. I don't even know what it is about him, I mean I see lots of hot celebrities online, but I just get this warm fuzzy feeling inside when I see or think about him. It was love at first sight which never happens to me. He literally had the most beautiful smile in the world, it's the one thing everyone says about him, it was the second thing I ever said about him "I love him, his smile is beautlful" maybe I should stop, I could go on and on about how perfect he "seems" I put those quotation marks since I don't actually know him and of course he's gonna make himself seem perfect so he'll have fans buy the music. I'm not completely stupid either, I do know he has a public image which may not be how he is really. It's just nice to dream. And he does talk too much for my liking, I'd have a headache listening to him lol.

About not feeding it, yeah tonight I was at a show and still couldn't stop thinking of him. I kept picturing that smile, that damn smile that melts my heart. I don't know, I'm sorry for hijacking the thread going on about him. How are you doing elin95?
That's the only way I can cope with my situation too, by rationally telling myself in a logical way that she can't be as perfect as I think she is, that she has flaws too. Many people tell me too that you can tell by the way she reacted to me that she probably has issues too. That's the only way for me to play it down for myself, is to say but I don't know her for real that well. I fell in love with the persona she had in the public eye, maybe she is horrible behind closed doors. It's just very hard to attach these negative qualities to someone you love though, because you don't want to believe it about them. It's like a father or mother struggling to accept their child is a criminal or serial killer or whatever. It doesn't fit with their image of the person they love.
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Alone & confused, angelicgoldfish05
Thanks for this!
angelicgoldfish05, elin95