I posted recently about being in denial and unsure about my diagnosis, and being afraid to take medication. I had really been struggling that week and just kept feeling worse so the outcome was that I bumped my pdoc appointment up by a week and planned to talk honestly with her. My appointment was supposed to be yesterday but both of my parents were spontaneously ill in the morning and I can't drive so we had to reschedule again. Her next available appointment was December 22.

I don't think I can wait that long. I barely thought I could wait until yesterday, a whole month is just too much. I have a prescription from her last appointment (which was our first appointment) for Keppra that I'm a little wary of. I've heard that many people get horrible, occasionally suicidal depressive side effects from it. I definitely lean towards severe depression and have struggled with strong suicidal ideation in the past. I am also generally very sensitive to medication so I was a little put off by it, especially because I have mostly seen people taking it for seizure disorders and not mood disorders.

I don't really feel like I have a lot of options, I'm kind of desperate. I can't be like this for a month. Should I just fill the Keppra prescription and cross my fingers?

Has anyone been on Keppra for bipolar 2? How did it work for you?